An Orphan’s Prayer

Subjected to poverty really I’m stricken

Trying to balance good and evil due to the agony I’m feeling

Lack of emotional intelligence

Not knowing if I’m just pure hearted or plain naive going through such adversity but still find a way to love and give

Time is an illusion so this can’t be my fate I’m tired of begging for food on my plate

How is this my fault my parents didn’t want me, abortion wasn’t an about how could this be choosing to keep seems unfortunate to me or maybe just maybe I’m where I’m supposed to be

So I took to the Bible trying to find peace much to my surprise it was people like me the stories the strife it wasn’t a bad read love and healing is really available to me

One step at a time I have to give it to me

Then I heard a voice say “listen unto me”

I don’t care what you look like

I don’t care how you sound

I care about your heart your love is profound

I say you’re beautiful,angelic so divine

They’re no mistakes made I created you you’re mine

What’s beautiful about dirt casted out and thrown away the giggles the snares everyday the hate I’m hungry I’m cold no place to call home my parents didn’t want me I’m so alone

The voice said my child you believe that

I said yes I live it everyday

I’m constantly judged, bullied

He said “WAIT”

You’re looking at it wrong but I’ll explain to you

You’re parents was transportation just to get you through

I needed you here so that was the way

Your struggle your strife

I disguised you this way

Being hungry ok starving no way everyday I made sure that you had a plate

I gave you what you needed and it was always enough

The lessons the teachers may not always been easy and some repeated because you wasn’t comprehending

I hide you in darkness for you are the light

Your my child alone yeah right

I carried you I protected you with all my might I introduce you to you now you know your strength you’re heart your fight

You’re inner child was hurt abandon and lonely but as you past your tests your healing became more potent

You learned who you are

You never gave up

You was still smiling when things got tough

In a place full of hate and experienced the worse

You chose love Unconditional and all

You could of went the other way

But you chose to awnser my call

I heard your prayers each and every time

You healed plenty hearts and changed a lot of minds

Bringing them to the light

Well played my child

Your energy is healing

Truly divine

You’re dreams are manifesting

A star you will shine

Just stay on your path

You’ll be fine

I love you very much

The heavens is proud

Get ready for WHATS next

Don’t worry it’s a SUPRISE

An Angel Vindicated….

There was a woman who endured much agony, strife at a very young age not knowing very much of the beginning but I will proceed with what I know…

Losing her mother early on in her life and having to take care of her self, the early adolescent was bouncing from family to family not blood ties but ones in which she created, protecting and nurturing one’s she chose to love having to care for children early on that wasn’t even hers lead to a lot of sleepless nights, fights you name it, it happened. If losing her mother wasn’t enough in between time she started losing siblings I can think of four right now, never really had time to mourn just gliding through life. But let’s go back a lil on her mother deaf bed she made a promise that her and her younger brother will always have each other back. At the age of 18 followed a pregnancy from one traumatized night that she will never forget not sure if her mother knew exactly what led up to that but she was surely happy to have a grandson whom she already called peewee without even knowing the sex, before her child was born her mother perished. On Dec 31st 1985 at 9:06 pm a beautiful baby girl was born by the name of Lia’juana R Clark, expected to bring her joy, love , peace did the exact opposite, being reminded of that dreadful night it brought pain and rage but how can’t you be happy with such a beautiful blessing I’ll tell you if the child looks like more of the attacker than her. With all the compliments about her baby she smiled and replied thank you, I believe she wanted to love me of course she did I was hers, the heartache just over powered that. I believe the circumstance was truly awful without a doubt and when your mind is one tracked and full of darkness you start losing your own light and you give away so much power that’s when they win and you lose, you find yourself depleted, stagnant and a sense of contentment with the way life is or what you view it is offering. My perspective on the birth of me is much more deeper, I believe that GOD knew my mom’s suffering just as well as he knew her heart, sometimes GOD has a plan that we may not understand and he uses people on your path to teach you,to love you, to heal you,to protect you,bless you or bring karma. I feel as though GOD did this and blessed her with me so she can feel a sense of healing and love, someone she created that’s part of her, I believe my mother knew I was special early on, she saw my light, due to the darkness overshadowing her she started to dim my light in every way in every word in every attack ironically and spiritually enough I chose to love her harder but delicately battered bruised and injured I will extend a hug but that’s wasn’t working.

Years later like the age of 10 I noticed I had gifts & talents so I honed in on them, contra plating that perhaps I could heal her with just that. I realized that we had a shared interest in reading, writing so I reached out to her with my poetry I believe she liked it but it’s that why it’s you factor so that didn’t work so I went to comedy feeling that laughter so I will tell her jokes and do skits thinking it will bring her a cleansing some type of healing of course she enjoyed and did just that again why is it me. Next it was Songwriting another common denominator not knowing that she was ghostwriting for a known male r&b group I introduced her to my skill set she listened but again nothing. I tried intellect i graduated from high school with a 3.5 gpa & college a 3.8 gpa I also got a career diploma in private investigation a dry congratulations but she couldn’t stand it was me, I believe she wanted all my gifts to be my sister, My sister went to cosmetology school graduated and this woman was in tears. I was never celebrated every birthday she became Ill not knowing if that was mental or she was physically sick either way it sickness right I’m 37 and never felt loved or celebrated outside myself. I remember one birthday she bought me a Super Bowl cake or she will bake a cake and put jelly on it I liked it it reminded me of my grandfather. But my sister a different story whom I love just as much but they both hate me, they attacked me together,they slandered me. I couldn’t tell you how my little sister went from loving and protective to public enemy number 1. I felt I did everything to get the love I was dishing out. At times I felt I bought love long as I was giving I was ok. But as much pain everyone wanted to inflict on me I chose love and always will. I don’t care what I look like or what I sound like I’m GODS elect & weapons form but will not prosper. I will always have enough. I use to be angry isolated depressed suicidal but now I’m older and I just feel empathetic if anything. I just want to break what no longer works I don’t care if that’s curses ,belief’s whatever I mean healing is what’s needed. I’m an upcoming artist, model, author working towards greatness but first I had to work on me and heal my childhood wombs, work on self love,self acceptance. I discovered who I was and now I’m mastering that for I am love light and truth, I’m the guiding light in darkness I will always see my way through. I even thought I was being treated crazy due to people treat you how you treat yourself every person is a mirror and their going to reflect what you don’t see back to you so with that being said I mistreated me by giving so much to others and not self and I was losing my worth I was depleted so I now have an inner standing on what’s happening and now I offer my story and wisdom to others. I’m at a great place in life now GOD blessed me with life plus 6 beautiful children whom is my soul tribe I loved them you guys so much and they’re amazing. I’m healing and now I HEAL-you.

To my mother I understand I love you

And I pray you heal your heart and redemption is available

Just forgive yourself I already have💋

FALLEN ANGELS LLC A NON PROFIT ORGANIZATION…..

My name is Liajuana Clark,

Fallen Angels LLC is a non profit organization for inmates who have been incarcerated for a long time that needs readjusting to society, this will be a case by case situation,looking thoroughly into each one specifically.

We will be providing a luxurious facility, food, furniture, clothing vouchers, a job readiness program,a parenting program, substance abuse, anger management, an extra incentive and a law class as well .

I came up with this program because I knew a lot of people that committed crimes were extremely young and were charged as adults, or for the ones that were misguided ,tricked or just didn’t know any better, I’m not a judge and don’t like to be judged however I do want to help create a resolution,

With knowing they lived in a facility for years that lacked love a life force, compassion and understanding in my facility the proper nourishment can be given, from self discovery to self mastery journey to healing can delay or perhaps stop pain from spreading.

I’m looking for some type of grants or investors to help me see this though so if you may comment or share to someone who may be intrigued please do so.

Or email me : clarkliajuana2@gmail.com

Thanks in advance,

Liajuana Clark

“Once upon a midnight dream”

I woke up in tears , not your typical tears happy tears due to a beautiful dream about my soul retrivial

I remembered seeing angels , arch angels my ancestors whom greeted me at the gates I never seen something so beautiful so serene I was in total awe, my grandmother didn’t look like her well she did but younger everyone was younger talking about eternal life she said we were expecting you I reached for her hand and actually connected this is amazing we continued to walk I saw animals lots of beautiful animals as I proceeded to the podium that was right before me and there were judges with a book I’m like ohhh knowing I have fell short a few times for I know I’m not perfect well anyway they’re poker face was truly intense they open the book and said good job Liajuana you broke generational curses you brought healing, love, light and truth to my children you are herby grant you soul retrieval we’re going to take back your power from every person place or thing that is not of the light furthermore you have a place in the kingdom I also grant you eternal youth with the protection of the divine order the angels and arc angels are by your side then I saw a figure whom was divinely beautiful it was Jesus and he don’t look like the photos and his first words was my earth angel my healer my rebel I’m so proud of you you’re never alone your constantly love and protected I replied your will shall be done he then nodded his head up and down with a smile, I asked if I can stay awhile he laughed and replied it’s not time you must go back the people need you your placed in darkness my child for your the light but you have permission to work with your ancestors if need be no matter where they’re are I said thank you he reached his hand out to send me back oh my angelic family was doing a heavenly cha cha slide a celebration of life the rebirth of me this was a blessing indeed

A Daughters Vegence

Beautiful yet playing both dumb & confused

While doing his time I was growing up with sex offenders whom abused me on a constant basis at the time I was perplexed as well as traumatized on some many levels the physical abuse was minor compared to what I was really experiencing , but as I grew into my adolescent years I began to study the minds of sex offenders plus they’re emotional state during and after an act, at this time I stop being emotional and became more logical but I couldn’t understand why my father was in jail for both rape and kidnapping I heard so many stories to where I started my own investigation. Learning the people I was residing with so I can understand my father a little more so I resonated with him on a lot of emotions & thoughts but moving forward to my adulthood after being falsely accused of the same crime at the age of 10 I understand humiliation, betrayal, isolation hurt and anger in which brought me to elevating my education so I went to school for private investigation learning as much as I could I graduated received my career diploma. Now my father is released from prison and I’m in total bliss, we hooked up and was having a great time and all of the sudden he’s lock back up and all of those emotions came flooding me all at once. I continued to be a mother and teacher and living my life while being very studious and off to myself, now my father is released once again I remain cordial but after a while I became combative reason being I learnt last go round that they used the divide and conquer scheme so instead of making it a weakness I made it a strength I felt if they seen us arguing and not close I may perhaps distract them, “daddy I love you with all of me my apologies “ ,nether less I continued my investigation and I met a man who was in fact trying to holler at me once rejected he began to say you grew up nicely and went on saying that he did the crime cause his wife slept with him willingly and how he beat her and raped her with a condom how she was so scared and claimed my dad did it but of course I kept a poker face but I was past rage now vengeance is mines I thought to myself . But did I forget to mention that I was told that I came from a rape but was crazy is I’m hearing the best friend raped my mother so how is my father my father please dna test me please. So now I definitely want JUSTICE & KARMA is now my name so as of now I’m the sacrificial lamb I am DEATH the ending of all things that is not of GOD. So I asked GOD to use me as bait so I can get all these muthafuckaz. One by one gathering evidence oh trust and believe they tried killing me several times but GOD gifted me immortality and I’m eternally grateful. Recently I had undergone a massive surgery so I survived a brain aneurysm I couldn’t believe I was alive due to how big it was that’s how I know it’s an anointing on my life. My love for my father is pure as the dove earthly and spiritual and time and space is an illusion. Anyway he came to visit me in the hospital I felt confusion from him yet love even if he lack emotional intelligence,once he left the alleged rapist came as well and this where we our today

A Background so dreadfully distasteful yet so fully understood, growing up hugging my father behind those walls loving him so strong at a distance I grew fonder of him

#check my next post my Facebook page @ COKIANNA Wilson as I confront him about the rape of my mother

#vengeance #stories #reallife #mystory #a daughters love #adaughter understanding

Vibrations Of Love

Love is not a state of confusion doubt nor worry but an action that can change said person day or life, I suppose you witness a gesture of some kind in which left you in a state of smiling. Love is an energy which one shall discover as well as mastered within self, and then there’s ‘synergy ‘ when two forces join as one to achieve greatness.The frequencies are radiant yet powerful, the vibrations of love is real yet rare.So Energy dont lie

A Bloody Rose

A BLOODY 🌹

By LiaJuana Clark

I remember as if it was yesterday smelling the aroma of the brisk air which let me know that winter is approaching, I always felt like I could smell snow “funny huh”, neither less I began to gaze out the window watching the leaves fall to the ground with admiration of the colors contraplating that I didn’t want to be beautiful and vibrant then die like those leaves, wanting to be rescued from the agony in which I endured just wanting a sigh of relief but I wasn’t even close so with that being said let me explain to you my story.

I remember as far back as five years of age, dealing with several emotions but the one that stood out the most was fear. I was living with my paternal grandmother who appeared to be Caucasian, her hair was long jet black and silky straight when wet extremely curly, she had to been like 5’8 very busty and hippy with no ass, her face was angelic so beautiful, she was a jack of all trades I’m talking several hustles, many titles and wore them all, she was formerly an prostitute and she earned enough money to switch to the dope game not your typical grandmother I’m sure, she had several hoods on lock I mean even the mail carrier was purchasing. My grandmother didn’t believe in laziness either you work, hustle or go to school that was law, although love wasn’t really displayed I knew it was somewhere. On top of all that my grandmother displayed some behaviors that mostly startled me, she was very co-dependent on alcohol I mean she would buy 4 gallons at a time and so would her spouse, at one point she would appear as an earth angel other times it was Lucifer himself in the flesh, honestly I didn’t know what I was dealing with, she would become very aggressive and abusive towards everyone but my siblings and I caught it the most especially my younger sister, I never knew why until my early 20’s and only then did I receive an sincere apology and death shortly came later.

Living in this household my siblings and I endured so many traumatic experiences it was like the house of horrors, let me explain we dealt with sexual, emotional, psychological, verbal and physical abuse it seem as though it would never let up, I’ve been locked in closets, tied to the bed, placed in the tub and beaten with an extension cord soak and wet for little or no reason at all, so we were too frighten to actually act out of sorts. Now I know by now you’re like what the fuck, yeah my sentiments exactly. Now let me talk to you for a minute, I have some uncles and male cousins that’s truly sick as fuck, these individuals was molesting us on an constant basis, first time I seen or sucked a dick was at 5 years of age and guys wonder why I call myself ‘the soul snatcher” but we will get to that later, like I was saying this went on until I was 10 years of age, actually one of my grandmother boyfriends is the one of two that perform oral sex on me between ages 7 or 8 years of age and I pissed right in his mouth and started to laugh, they had me so dysfunctional I started taking nudes of myself I know just terrible don’t worry about judgment I totally get it anyhow my sister broke silence about the abuse and the reaction left me perplexed, I mean they were enraged accused her of lying, attention seeking you name it, I know that had to be a dark place to be in as well as lonely, I’ve never felt so powerless and I still carry the burden of not defending nor protecting her, they compare and contrast us so much that were strained even to this date now don’t get me wrong my sister loves me dearly and always been my protector I can just feel the distance between us which saddens me deeply. In our childhood years she willingly took the blame for my mistakes all cause she hated to see me in pain oh how fearless she was I admired and appreciated her for that, Once we reached our adolescent years she became even more protective she fought all my battles and won my younger sister was a force to be reckoned with I tell you that much even more so until this day.

I was always a loner yet popular, I really was never the partying type I enjoyed stimulating my mental more than anything so I had a thing for literature, I also was quite observant I had a thing for checking out behaviors and feeling people energy at an young age some people felt as though I was paranoid but in all actuality cautious was more like it, I couldn’t trust no one especially family.

I recall one winter between thanksgiving and Christmas my uncle came to visit as usual to have his way with us then turn around and steal money and gifts, but this particular holiday season my sister decided to get vengeful, so she took this man hat filled it up with snow then continued as she tied my uncle to our coffee table, I’m not gone lie I was laughing but extremely terrified and all I heard was I’m gone make this table fall on him, My response to that was I’m about to hurry and fall asleep but who was I fooling I wanted to see the plan through and I did he tried getting up and couldn’t he was so mad I tightly shut my eyes he tried getting up and everything flip 0ver, man that was something. Well back to me by the time I was 14 years of age everything manifested any deep rooted emotions no longer hidden it was truly on display, my attitude was horrible, far as my personality it was warm and kindred very childlike simply loving yet inviting., my self –esteem was shot to hell by now I’m logical instead of emotional to all relationships so I appeared standoffish yet frosty towards people, I’ve dealt with identity crisis, sexuality issues, abandonment and trust issues clearly I was lost but the mask I wore and the smile I cracked was my security blanket and it kept me safe from others to be able to read my story, actually I’m misread even up to this day. For so many years I thought I had control of it all and told myself daily that I’m not affected by no situation from my past, my denial was real, I realized that my abuse and environment affected me so bad on so many levels when I looked up my life as I knew it was in shambles, I have many issues as you can see so I will explain to you how my traumatize childhood affected my sexuality and intimate relationships” put your seatbelt on”, you’re in for a ride. I guess I’ll start by saying how I started using sex as an weapon and the power it had in itself, I would say this I don’t feel no emotion before or during even there after intercourse, I simply use it for gain but of course I had plenty of time to mind fuck my targets, I always create fantasy and adventure I supply the comfort down from massages to establishing an false sense of trust, I was taught it was simply about the money and power never love. So I felt like that’s all I had for an long time, my intellect and my vagina was my most powerful tools I had so I brought it all to capitalize never questioned if I’m hurting anyone. My sex life was fiery and intimate I mean people thought I was loving or in love with them just fun and business without them acknowledging but seeing that I was talented in my endeavors it could have been hard to concentrate, I had good sense of feeling people similar to me who also was an victim of traumatization and it was easy for me to be their security blanket and I will explain why, men who undergo sexual abuse are really conflicted like women they have problems of identity or sexuality and you can bet their truly embarrass so I guess you can say I’m best of both worlds I’m their boyfriend/ girlfriend so that its less complex I guess, I penetrate them just like a man would cause their use to that feeling and at times crave it so I supply it, so with that being said I’m the safe deposit box to their fears and secrets they also satisfy me and that’s my way of getting even with man it’s truly confusing but I tried my best to explain. I’m a bi sexual female so it really don’t bother me I just switch from LiaJuana to Le Juan and it go down. At first I didn’t recognize that I was an abuser until my first love gave me a look and for the first time in a while I felt someone pain and the look of despair and embarrassment told it all damn I felt fucked up the very thing I hated I turned into deep only differences they were adults and choose to engage but me using their weakness as my strengths and executing my plan was foul and to this day I struggle to forgive myself. I will say this I currently have several individuals that have codependency issues when it comes to that and when rejected their both confused and angry then I feel conflicted knowing I have to deliver it’s like my consequence is grand.

Now let’s dive right into my next issue my identity crisis, as I stated earlier on I lived with my paternal grandmother who image didn’t appear as an woman of color nor did my aunts, my uncles looked bi racial of course. I’m Carmel complexion 5’4 beautiful naturally curly hair, brown eyes perfect symmetrical teeth but then I was high yellow nearly white so yes I was lost but I also found it intriguing and annoying, I often got tease and taunted in grade school due to my appearance they often made accusations of me being adopted which made me become isolated and question my whole existence but I also had some people who admired my look calling me pocohantas.its more to this story but I will elaborate later.

Let’s talk about my abandonment issues, I have grown to be both possessive and territorial to all my relationships, Of course I’m not an open person emotionally but when I do love I tend to love hard but once that’s transpired it’s often hard for me to detach. See I’ve never really had no one simply to myself it’s was always someone else or death and imprisonment was the cause in which I had an loss to them all which left me in total despair, so with that being said I really don’t allow that access for others to get close due to me being tired of the constant disappointments and heartbreaks. I feel this sense of feeling came from both of my parent’s incarceration, my mother did fed time on drug charges, guns etc. and my father in state penitentiary for rape and kidnapping for a long time I was angered considering the charges like so you mean to tell me all this was more important than me especially my dad so I always felt little to no value and to this day pussy run his world and it’s still his first love honestly he never put me first. Now my mom returned home from prison and came to retrieve my sister and I my grandmother sort of warned me about her didn’t really know if what she said was truth or lies at that point in my life but anyway we ended up living with relatives which was very disturbing for me but anyway my sister immediately started opening up to my mother about everything but for some strange reason I was beyond pissed saying to myself she bet not ask me shit so from that day forth I immediately blocked her out far as I’m concern family are the only ones screaming I love you and instantly turn around and harming you plus I honestly didn’t know her and truth be told I didn’t care to and I’m more than sure she felt it. I can sense the tension between us, when she spoke I heard deceit on that alone caused me to challenge both her stories and actions some led to verbal arguments than it escalated to her putting her hands on me part of me to this day feels as though she sought out on taking her vengeance on me considering it was my family who harmed my sister but maybe if she had took the time out to learn people we wouldn’t of had that pain inflicted upon us or moreover made proper decisions knowing she had children, I found it very much so intriguing how she had time to develop an relationship with a man in Philly before bonding with us anyhow the fights are ongoing and my rage is enlarging, I mean have you ever felt so much pain that your eyes could no longer create tears or feel anything majority of the time when I got like that my mind would be in far place with the stars and planets and only my shell would be in the physical and that was quite frequent. I could never understand why her past was chasing me and she really thought I was looking for dirt on her it’s like sweetie the time it matter is currently over perhaps you should have been honest with your children or child from jump cause one thing I can’t stand is not being able to defend myself or being caught off guard, so meanwhile I’m getting approach by different people with all sorts of accusations which left me appalled so I go to her about it she instantly in defense mode of course seeing how my vibe is with her who can blame her so we exchange words then she tells me she hate me and I’m like finally some truth every word and action confirmed that statement but like I was saying that was my train of thought then and ignorant I truly was but I will discuss later why I say just that. Far as my father concern, Once he got home he did come to see me our relationship wasn’t your typical father / daughter bond well anyway he did 17 years so I instantly wanted to show him a good time so I introduce him to females, I even orchestrated his flings myself, my dad and I hung out in strip clubs together ,he smoked his weed and I always had a bottle and of course he match me but one day I told myself like you started this off wrong but that fast life / night life was my domain plus I had no language of love and this was my form of communication and on a side note he’s my father so he should take leadership and guide our relationship but of course that seed never went into fruition, I mean it was mind bottling how I friend zoned my dad, we hung out at sport bars or relatives house and watch the game, eat and drink on Sundays shortly after he was back incarcerated and I know his woman had something to do with it but as usual I took both the hit and the blame. The duration of my father incarceration I spent majority of it defending myself against allegations from my family and his woman now as I stated I’m fully responsible for the flings all that other shit they can miss me with and I let it be known see I have no tolerance for dumb shit at the end of the day he my parent so with that being said I can only do what he allow period and she stupid for thinking he was gone be faithful after doing 17 years and he wrong for playing on her loyalty and love far as I’m concern I was bonding where I sought fit, So as you can see dysfunctional relationships started early on which is no surprise why my intimate relationships don’t go so well, I have 6 children and four different fathers not like I plan for this just laid out like that and no I don’t believe in abortions either way I love these men in a way they would never understand they provided me with a gift with the help of the most high serving me individuals who will always love me and which I can love back loneliness was a fear yet it was safe. I was pregnant with my first son at the age of 14 the father ghosted me during my pregnancy and years after that but as of right now he’s in my son life and yes my son is currently 17 and yes I will finish this later.

Cokianna serving the stars✨

Cokianna serving the stars✨⭐️ By Laghacy Cokianna Inspired by the tv series p valley I decided to tell the story about my night life….. My name is Laghacy Cokianna I’m from and reside in Cleveland Ohio. Im known for being a model, up coming actress,author,writer , underground rapper and mother, seems like a busy life huh but yet I’m balanced, however there is another life I live that’s hidden but today I feel liberated as I come from behind the veil…. Tonight was like any other night at work but then something unorthodox transpired my supervisor whom was fine as hell asked if I would accompany him in having some drinks later on so I accepted in said invitation, so after work I met up with him at previously discussed location along with him was some more guys that’s was paid honey listen ,and pleasing to the eye but I couldn’t help but notice that some appeared feminine and others masculine I’m like don’t tell me all that sexy gone to waist ,I admit I was truly disappointed but I proceeded with the night I had such an amazing time so we all headed home to our dorms we sat outside talked and laughed and out of nowhere he pulled me aside and asked “you wanna be a nigga right”? I laughed yet I’m appalled like what so of course he asked again “you want to be a nigga right? Im like nawl I’m just bi sexual so then he asked me which role I played I said the masculine energy he laughed and was like exactly, I’m standing there stunned totally confused so he said it’s all good shorty come with me at first I was reluctant but the inquisitive me went with. I then noticed those friends was also in his dorm I’m like “WHAT THE FUCK”? to myself he like relax some of us gay and others are bi so you good, I sighed of relief but then a duffle bag hit the table he said open it now I’m looking around at everybody and they’re watching me as well so I open it was large amount of cash then the question was asked if I would fuck them with a strap I’m like huh come again you heard me he said so another guy brought another bag filled with sex toys yup dildos and all so I’m like you sure you want me to serve you dick he said yes I’m like ok but I don’t know how he laughed he said it’s just like fucking your bitch so I sipped my Hennessy went to his bathroom showered came back out as Le’juan and I’m here for it bitches I told myself I’m not scared of no money the bag was there and it was mine. So I grabbed his fine ass pushed him into a wall I need to have full control as I proceeded kissing him passionately as I undress him someone put on an R&b Playlist the lights was red and baby listen I was on demon time so anyway bitch I’m passionately kissing licking sucking him til I got waist down so listen I poured this caramel flavored syrup on his waist that heated up I proceeded kissing and licking the waist line went down further to his dick where I slowly stroked,caressed that pretty muthafucka I spit on it looked him his eyes and told him don’t take your eyes off me I said tell me you love this he said I loved this I said tell me you want this he repeated I want this now his dick is settling in my throat as it do that heartbeat thing I’m messaging his balls he lost in my eyes I showed him I could love the dick but now it’s time to disrespect the muthafucka besides this not my nigga I looked back into his eyes I asked have you ever buss on command he said no I then replied you will tonight I slowly moved my hand forward til I got a hold of his neck now that I got a grip and eye contact it’s a go I then began to deep throat the dick my mouth wet muscles together I’m practically hugging his dick with my throat now I’m speeding this up eyes still locked he grabbing my hair moaning and screaming yelling out bitch I guess that’s my name now so he dogging my head I said you ready he say for what I said call me another bitch and he did just that I heard bitch I launched it down my throat he cumming like crazy I’m drinking this nigga still clinched tight he screaming shaking still calling me bitches I’m still sucking that bitch back hard I now release him Told that nigga to flip over I then ate that pussy “hey if you know you know “ I got that bitch wet as I desired talking to him like tell me you want it he said yes I aggressively said no bitch tell me you want it he deeply breathing like I want it I told him arch that back my hand positioned on his neck I slide in slow stroking kissing him on his lips biting his lips sucking on his tongue yeah I got him now I’m kissing licking and sucking his neck now mind you everybody else watching with anticipation but I’m still slow stroking now I’m digging deep I now put his face down and that pussy sitting right I speeded up he moaning fucking me back now he calling me daddy I’m smacking ass drilling this bitch like he was my own next yelled “I HATE YOU” I smiled like I know, I flipped him over missionary style I’m in that shit French kissing lost in his eyes when I bite his bottom lip he moan when I sucked his tongue slowly he his ass and dick came at once and at that moment a tear drop, I got up like who’s next as if he wasn’t shit but a job is just that And I’m gone get it done

Love ova fame

“This story is based on betrayal,deception,manipulation last but not least sacrifice it’s ruled by greed in which it ends with judgement, karma and justice, I’m an upcoming artist who’s multifaceted I go by “Laghacy Cokianna” and this here is my story

“Love Over Fame”

It all started when I got discovered by an legion, however I didn’t quite recognize him at first solely because of his magician ways , a alchemist indeed a charming illusionist is what I’d call him.

Our first encounter was of course business related I had to make a public appearance, actually it was my stage debut, see my stage freight kept me from being successful for years but when this man came into my life it was like fear left my existence and I was ready for the world, so the day of my show I paid for a Mercedes Sprinter van actually I had it for the whole day nether less I stopped by his hotel and picked him up in which we met face 2 face, I locked eyes with this handsome species a deep stare actually, it was at that moment I recognized his soul I felt an instant connection not really sure if it was a past life energy trying to penetrate me uncanny i thought well after my show we hit my after party had a few drinks did some promo I met one of the DJ’s that worked with us connected with some associates shared some laughs shortly after I dropped him off the whole time I was with him I felt as though I couldn’t breathe finally I was able to exhale, once I arrived home I felt something was not quite right unsettling really so I proceeded to the shower a good cleanse was definitely needed both physically and spiritually afterwards I got into my bed got comfortable enough to go into an meditative state it wasn’t long before I drifted into a slumber.

I continued on with my daily tasks for like 2 weeks and without delay that unease feeling of mine resurfaced. I notice the change of behavior from others ,I slowly was feeling distant but it’s time again for me to put on a show so I was actually excited about this one but that definitely didn’t last long at all I was truly devastated by the humiliation that came upon me due to some behind the scenes shadiness. See what I can’t stand is for someone to throw a rock and hide their hand just pure malice, I then realize I didn’t play his game as he felt I should my body is my temple I both love and cherish all of it and me not giving it up or let one run mileage on it was like betrayal or how dare me not give in to him that was truly unethical so I had to pay the price my show was sabotaged but me being professional I continued to perform anyway. See I never had a problem with wearing my scars I have several I call myself a beautiful abomination due to all the turmoil I’ve been through gratefully enough I’m grateful for every lesson, experience and person see it was needed for this elevation, im not jaded by a far I’m able to love and love hard that’s how I know I’m winning.

Of course it didn’t stop their people can be disgusting without a doubt,next set of events occurred moments after I then notice I was being bootleg cloned it’s funny how people work so hard to become a second rate version of you than a first rate version of themselves ungrateful and confused I feel. As I stated earlier on I notice people dressing like me, trying to mimic my personality ,mannerisms etc followed by rumors stealing my craft gaining profits sent minions to try to start confrontation, when I say competing to me by a second rate was preposterous honestly I was appalled I then took a break from music that experience was so distasteful yet needed I say that because I never met someone who had me both inspired and motivated I was happy to just be me gave me opportunities in my face but when I blinked they were snatched right from me but that’s alright I have my dignity my self love my self respect and due to this happening I took time out to learn more about me and much to my surprise I discovered other talents that was hidden and started honing in on them and that brought me total satisfaction.

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