About Number words
By LiaJuana Clark
It started in a dark place where depression was the mother and betrayal was the father such a cold and lonely place to encounter the turbulence was like an volcanic eruption and lava covered the surface I look around no one insight but me standing in the pits of hell feeling the flame no sweat or tears my soul couldn’t cry out, I was searching for my heart but all I saw was red when I looked up I saw him, still as a rock cause I’m frightened at this point he stood in my face and said come to me I’ll make it go away as good as it sound I slowly turned away I dropped in the lava praying and chanting for a better way, begging for forgiveness for myself and those who prosecuted me when I open my eyes I was amongst my children in our home in my bed greeted with smiles and laughter thinking to myself GOD has a plan I embrace my children and the love we shared before I go any further let me start from the beginning, this is how I started my spiritual journey.
As a child I felt unique I often kept myself isolated, inquisitive very much so I had an hunger for knowledge, by the time I was an adolescent I respected diversity it was so much to learn from political views to religious backgrounds, economic concerns, different forms of families and their foundations, values, morals, different teachings but what I had thing for was the arguments which intrigued me to further investigate certain individuals point of views with withholding the knowledge of my upbringing to form my own hypothesis as well as seek truth. Often people misjudged as well as misread me often I was ridiculed and laughed at but see I saw the world from a different pair of eyes and I also returned the laughter cause the ignorance these individuals displayed and still to this day are naïve. The fundamentals of Psychology plays a big role in my spiritual journey of course as well as my psychological issues that America seems to classify if you seem remotely gifted of some kind, the one that bothers me most is paranoid schizophrenic, now let’s discuss this further, now they describe this illness of one in which you have delusions, auditory hallucinations or hearing things that are not there and perceptual disturbances, visual hallucinations sometimes occur which can lead to physical and emotional detachment, social withdrawal, anger and anxiety now I feel it’s truly unfair for America to try to classify this with such a title humanity as I know it lost love, understanding, and respect, my purpose is to truly change that now I’m not so much religious but however I’m very spiritual so I’m going to describe this as I see fit please don’t be alarmed but this is my book so therefore my opinion now as I was stating due to me being a spiritual being the medical terminology paranoid schizophrenic is no longer what I will call this beautiful phenomena strangely enough it’s a blessing here’s why these people are empaths highly intuitive they undergo many transformations clearly their spiritually awaken as well as enlighten, their perception is intensified, their aware of presence of course their connected they hold an inner quietness and it’s always timeless with them what they hear and see can happen now or years later actually their aliveness brings them harmony and intimidate others people tend to do strange things and act out of fear and as you can see provide chemicals to downplay their gifts and categorize them but this the land of the free what happened to equality that is without a doubt prejudice. These individuals your children, friends, family, colleagues are in your life for a reason their possibly earth angels, star seeds and indigos or crystal children which are spiritual beings or as we call light workers who are here to help you heal if you have children you will notice the signs and symptoms early on, a lot of us undergo traumatic experiences most importantly don’t follow our intuition due to us not being connected to our inner self or possibly being the individual everyone portrays us to be but I will give you clarity as you continue to read my story. I will quickly describe each one: star seeds are beings that have experienced life elsewhere in the universe on other planets other than earth, star seeds may also have had previous life times on earth, a typical star seed may have lived 5-50 life times on earth, star seeds are individuals that originate from far distant star and solar systems, planets and galaxies. These highly involved souls carry a plethora of wisdom and special abilities that hibernates deep within the core of their being. The signs of an an star seed they are naturally talented in the area of technology, physics, engineering, space travel and metaphysics, they tend to find solutions to problems quicker than others, life on earth appears to be disappointing or boring specially when reminded of where you come from, their soul is old even as a child appeared to be mature, memories of other planets and what it looked like, have an memory of purpose and mission on earth or simply catch a glimpse of it every now and then, tend to suffer from social anxiety plus have a hard time making small talk, can handle large crowds of people only for a short time, trusted by animals and children and their intrigued by you. Seem to struggle finding your place in society, constantly feeling challenged to awaken or reconnect with your purpose, extremely intelligent but not interested in conventional academics, body functions that’s different from others, empathetic to others emotions and can pick up what their feeling, are naturally technologically savvy and have a different way of problem solving, the feeling of being out of place and the rules of society goes against your beliefs, a strong sense of knowing earth is not you home, thoughts of space but that was to name a few, so are you a star seed or have one near? Earth angels: Earth Angels are usually spirit guides in training, or spirit guides who have been sent back to earth in order to learn or heal others, some angels can know and feel that they are different and are often aware of their spiritual duties, whereas others forget and have a hard time managing their life on earth. The signs of an earth angel is as follows, you experienced an awakening very early on and perhaps were always attracted to nature, mythical creatures and the meaning of life, your wise beyond your years and often carry a very worldly energy, strangers tend to vent to you about their problems and frustrations and you delight in being able to help them, you struggle with feeling grounded and finding your purpose, you’re interested in philosophy alternative methods of healing the metaphysical, you have an intense and deep personality and not afraid to dig deep within your psyche and the psyche of others to find truth, you might feel a constant struggle to align yourself with the physical world this may manifest as struggling to deal with boundaries of your ego, relationships maybe difficult for you to handle as you may find yourself attracted to abusive partners or those with deep emotional issues, it is very likely that you’re bi sexual, you may not feel the need to settle down, marry have children etc… you are highly intuitive and often foresee events before they occur and in-tune with other’s needs, you feel protective of children, nature and other vulnerable beings also these beings are attracted to you, you space out often or have vivid dreams or day dreams, lucid dreams or astral project, your emotions are often deep and heavy they fluctuate from positive to negative, you have an understanding of both light and dark emotions, you have innate understanding of the potential and magic of the universe, your life may undergo many radical changes and you may find that you move around a lot, you feel a longing to return home, you may not have stability but your basic needs such as money, housing, food etc. always seem to be taken care of, you move abruptly from one thing to the next if inspired so are you an earth angel like myself or perhaps have one close by? Now for Indigo children, Indigo children are souls present on earth now to help realign humanity with authentic truth as multidimensional spiritual beings. Indigo children are children who are believed to possess special, unusual and sometimes supernatural trait or abilities. The signs that you’re an indigo child, you’re strong willed, you’re an old soul, you’re a free thinker, you’re headstrong, you’re passionate, you’re a truth seeker, you’re perceptive and intelligent, you’re highly intuitive, you want to change the world, empathetic and compassionate, a change making leader, idealistic, you have a loner/autonomous personality, highly creative, you have a strong connection to nature and animals and these children may be subjected to what America refers to as Inattention ADHD / Hyperactivity/Impulsive ADHD because of the difficulty with discipline and authority, refusing to follow orders or directions or just simply not doing things like waiting in line for example, so think is this you? Crystal Children is next so here we go, Crystal Children reflect the new generation that has come to the earth plane after the indigo children, the crystal children began to appear on the planet from about 1990-2010 their main purpose is to take us to the next level in our evolution and reveal to us our inner and outer power, they function as a group rather than as individuals, and they live by the Law Of Global Oneness. They are advocates for love and peace on this planet. They are mostly born into the gold ray of incarnation and evolution, which means they have access to gifts of clairvoyance and healing. They are born on the sixth dimension of consciousness and then rom the thirteenth dimension which represents universal consciousness. You can’t hide anything from these children, you won’t be able to lie to them either, as they know immediately what the truth is and fully aware of your thoughts more importantly what is in your heart and is extremely sensitive. If you are a parent of a crystal child, it is crucial that your child take in good energy at all times or as much as possible, your role is to help these children reflect harmony, peace and oneness to the universe, this in return will help all of us to raise our vibrational energies and spread peace throughout the world. Now that I gave a little insight of these light workers I can now go into my journey. First off both my childhood and adolescent years was agonizing and traumatic, I tried the counseling which for me gave birth to frustration and conflict, as an adult I’ve dealt and dealing with hardships, betrayals, heartaches, anger, disappointments but as I reflect there is this specific being that inflicted so much pain on me and I loved him so much and I fought for both him and us now I will say this I always had a thing to where I find the beauty in pain and I embrace and rejoice cause in this case it was truly an celebration. This individual wasn’t as bad as I portrayed him to be so I will explain to you why, this individual hurt me to the core to the point I cried daily but solely at night, I couldn’t eat I lost weight, I couldn’t sleep, my daily routine was so off balance however this man in the beginning taught me how to love others outside of my children he could make me feel so high then on the other hand made me feel so low he had me feeling emotions on a new level that I never encounter I was truly confused I started taking a drug formally known as molly I started drinking more as well as hanging out with people that never would be of my taste I was losing myself and it was no one around to protect me now I’m a mother of six completely depressed and stressed but I wore my mask well now don’t get me wrong sometimes I had fits of rage and instantly I will isolate myself. One day I was lying in my bed in my room with my newborn right along with my two toddlers and I heard a horn in my driveway so I grab the baby and headed outside with the thought of my friend finally arriving but once I reached outside I was attacked by an unfamiliar individual nor did she care that I was amongst my children nor the fact I was holding my child so I hurried to my porch and went to give the baby to my daughter and in between that she attacked me if that wasn’t shocking enough there was also a man accompanying her as well as a woman, I was so confused like how did she know where I stay more over who is she more importantly why am I being attack to this day I don’t know her but the message was clear GOD has a way of creating turbulence such as any natural disaster and people tried to take cover or search for help but anyway I realized the man above don’t play and don’t like no one placed above him plus I was losing myself so he created what I call a tower moment to capture my attention and that he did. Later on that night I cried and cried I then look outside toward the moon just gazing at it I then close my hands and began to pray I proceeded with listening to the gospel just so I can purge in a healthy way, so one day I turned to YouTube and type in tarot readers I don’t really understand why but I was reciprocating messages although they weren’t personal readings and was read for the collective they resonated with me and strangely enough certain readers picked up my energy I was appalled so with that being said I knew I was a Capricorn but as I listened to these readers talk about birth charts and sun, moon and rising signs was intriguing in fact I found a birth chart to find out my placements exactly, so I would be going to different readings for love and career and by the time I finished listening to my sun moon and rising signs I got the whole story line how fascinating is that. The next thing I started to notice was numbers and I saw them quite often such as 11:11 11:44 11:33 11:55 1:11 2:22 3:33 whether it was my clock, an address, number of view or plays on you tube or a time stamp on a video so I got curious what does this mean exactly so I researched I saw articles I saw videos which let me know many things but mostly the divine was with me I realized my angels or ancestors were present and that’s how they communicated with me other than the tarot cards, after that certain animals start showing up more frequent than usual so I researched that which was another form of communication I found this too be exciting and for once in my life I wasn’t feeling the sense of lost I started meditating often for cleansing,clarity,good health, abundance it was so many and with that being said I learned how to manifest and how the law of attraction really work, I learned about astrology, numerology, universal energies, synchronies, mythical creatures and the one I always loved was unicorns, I learned about different types of readers and different forms of reading which made me purchase my own decks I currently have 8 one traditional deck and the others are oracles I rather read through feeling and I hear by seeing, I purchase plenty of candles and incents that has various meanings and different chants and when I saw I was beginning to heal and fell whole again I found my purpose and it all made sense it was so profound and beautiful I’m becoming stronger every day and if it had not been for him I wouldn’t of never went within, I learned about my shadow side I went into the depths of my soul he honestly helped me find out who I was and become one with myself and all the lessons he taught me provided me both experience and wisdom to be able to help,teach,heal others and as crazy as it sounds I love him for just that alone. Interesting enough on this journey I found out that he was my twin flame which means we mirror one another.